The Mausoleum of All Hope and Desire

moving is such a pain in the ass

2008-09-05T00:28:26Z

im serious

eagle shirt

2008-09-03T21:24:49Z

New tshirt

ariel hates life

2008-08-18T06:59:09Z

Fr rlz. Srsly. She dances like she spoke Spanish. But not.

I love portland!

2008-07-12T18:10:23Z

Sensually!

Smelled like what, you say?

2007-12-31T21:16:14Z

She prolly smelled like this:

Its been a long time.

2007-10-05T23:41:59Z

so, whats new? Subtle is new (to me). So is Deep Puddle Dynamics. Theyre rad bands. You should also be listening to maritime.
Things w/ heather are weird. not bad, just obscure. I may or may not elaborate on this next year.
Things internally are stormy. Portland is cold and wet (per norm.)
I am at work and will hopefully find the time to redo the site template and start updating again. and change that damned flash intro.

A new Dream

2006-12-17T02:05:06Z

Who needs drugs when you can just stand up fast??
-- a to the b

Options

2006-12-09T02:34:36Z

we were walking, holding hands
with our barefeet in the sand
and the seagulls overhead
when i broke the spell and said:

i could never divorce you
without a good reason
and though i may never have to
it's good to have options

but for now i need you

but it was always in my head
because no one ever says
what they really mean to say
when there's so much a stake

so i told her i loved her
and she told me she loved me
and i mostly believed her
and she mostly believe me

this is how we multiply
pity that it's not my life
the friction and skin
the trembling sighs
this is how the bodies move
with everything that we could lose
pushing us deeper still
the sheets and the sweat
the seed and the spill
the bitter pill yet undiscovered

gideon is in the drawer
clothes scattered on the floor
she's arching her back
she screams for more

"oh my sweet rapture
i hear jesus calling me home"

finally a chance to breathe
reaching for the fallen sheets
collapsing in
a glowing heap
we've gone too far
we've done too much
we have to quit it
just one more kiss
just one more touch
please ten more minutes
this feels so good
just barely moving
the tension building
our bodies working
to reach the goal

oh my sweet rapture
i hear jesus and the angels
singing "hallelujiah"
calling me to enter the promised land

Countdown to Portland

2006-08-27T15:44:01Z

Today + Tomorrow <= 2.

Sweet New York, I pine for Thee.

2006-08-27T15:13:07Z

This is it. The last of days. Well, in Brooklyn at least. Come this evening, I will ride away in a speeding mercury red Mercury Cougar, racing to the east, and to freedom (from the cougar). We will be on our way to Southold, Long Island. A hefty drive across the largest island off the coast of the continental united states. Upon entering the glory of Southold, Heather and I will join the illustrious pair of islanders, Nolan and Ashleigh (who I only recently realized was an eigh and not a y). Ashleigh will purchase the cougar for a modest sum of cash, and we will spend the evening and following day enjoying beverages on the beach. After much deliberation, Heather decided that King Leopold would not be allowed to excurse with us to the beach. My proposition was simple: King Leopold should accompany us to Southold, and be SET FREE, as all creatures desire, to fish (and fend) for himself. Heather, the great detractor, asserted that in his *mild* mental retardation, that he would be incabale of learning such essential skills. NOTE: I am not the heartless and uninterested party in the debate, I was full of hope for KL, assured that he was not handicapped but handi-capable of collecting fish and antiques, thus making a life for himself on the short end of the Long Island. After a bit of intervention from Beka, Heather's glorious elder sister, Leopold has been liberated from her dictatorial grasp.

Count Down to Portland

2006-08-25T03:14:49Z

NOLAN!!!

2006-08-25T02:56:30Z

Nolan's picture with a gaussian blur (4.5 radius, diffusion b/t 25 and 28) and a stamp filter (2 clarity, 24 light/dark) .
Theres a really awesome story behind that Star Wars shirt too. Nolan and I was parking the car - after recovering it from the pirates who repaired the lower control arm - in Brooklyn, and in between finding a spot and deciding it was too small, we were outside on the sidewalk talking about the parking spot Heather was pointing out. We had concluded **correctly** from a distance of about 6 lanes of traffic that her suggestion was too small to accomidate our beast of a yacht (ahem! car). During our deliberation, a young man of approximately the same height as nolan arrived in our vicinity and complimented nolan on the fashions of his tee shirt (a royal green with lighter green text: "Trust Me, I'm Irish"). After he was within earshot, I ascertained that although the same height as nolan, this young man was about twice his weight. This kid was fuckin' HUGE! He was wearing a SWEATY, SMELLY, dare i say STANK, Star Wars origional print tee-shirt. This shirt is crazy old. Well, responding in kind, nolan complimented this smelly brooklynite on his attire aswell. They decided through some "bald guy communication" i couldn't comprehend that they should trade. (i have no clue why this was a favorable trade for either party, but, whatever.) Nevertheless, Nolan and brooky are standing in the middle of the sidewalk of 4th Avenue in Park Slope (a MAJOR roadway) SHIRTLESS, and holding on to each other's shirt consumed fist. At this juncture, HALF NAKED OUTSIDE IN BROOKLYN, Brooky pops THE question about the subject in question. "Are you a Jedi or Sith??" he wondered in Nolan's Direction. Well, anyway, as you can see, nolan got the shirt, and after being mended and washed (twice, for the smell) took a picture of himself in it. I photoshopped this picture.

Jesus, I look terrible the morning after!

2006-08-25T02:50:53Z

I found this after perusing the old files imported to my computer from heathers brand spankin' Four Month Old camera! She must have taken this while i was asleep (theres a cup of coffee in my hand, out of the photoshop fun though. )

oh if i could be wasting away anywhere

2006-07-21T04:59:11Z

The reason the game is rigged...

2006-06-16T21:20:46Z

If you've got the time, you dont have the money...